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AUTOBIOGRAPHY
independant queen workin for her throne
" I know the world's cold and deceiving but I keep my head up like my nose is bleeding " - Lil Wayne
Cassandra N.R.T.'s the given name but people call me Cassie or Cas.
I got a smile on the face with a fuck you mentality. I'm hated and loved, but who isn't?
That typa girl who's called a bitch/asshole (whatever's negitive) because she speaks the truth.
In the teen years and is educated. I try my best not to regret because I only learn from my mistakes.
God and the ones I call family keep me going on the regular. My trust is limited. I know, sounds
cliche but it really is. Meaning I can count the selected ones I really trust with my own 2 hands.
Other than all the negative, i'm pretty chill once you get to know me.
Just like Kanye, Everything i'm not made me everything I am.
Get at me with something real. †♥$ ♪
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you're the air in my lungs that i live to breathe
Wednesday, March 18, 2009 (12:49 PM)
yesterday - my day was so messed. why do i always do this to myself? i make myself worry so much and think so damn much and then in the end i'm worrying bout nothing. all of yesterday all i did was think about you; where are you? what are you doing? did you forget me especially? til 10:15 something like that and i go on for the end of the day and i finally get something from you. i finally seen that 1 i been waiting to see beside INBOX on facebook. and you said things that made me smile. you always know what to do to make me smile. you tell me how you went out to your friend's base and i msg you back and i get a "finalllly! i miss you baby" and i msg you back and i get a "i love youu!" the fact that you say those things to me, just made me smile. knowing that you truly do love me especially. i swear i needa make myself stop worrying and thinking so negative coz in the end it really is nothing im worrying so much about. the fact that i got you and you know you got me too, the fact that i'm loved by you and the fact that you don't forget about me is all i really want. it's the little sweet things you say to me that make my heart melt and the stupid corny jokes we make. the things you say are your actions. yesterday i made 3 posts on the blog all about you worrying so damn much bout to make myself cry. 2 long ass posts about me worrying, thinking as if you forgot me. til the end of the day i realize that you didn't forget me, you never will, tru. i'm happy i got you and you're happy you got me. your stuck in my heart and in my mind and same ways for you bout me. never leave. the way i think about you so much sometimes hurts figuring why you just can't be here right this moment but the fact that i'm with you in your heart and mind just gets me. you got me, i got you. i love you, you love me. i need to stop worrying and thinking that you don't love me anymore or you forgot me because truth is, you do love me and you didn't forget me. when i think like that, i just make myself hurt from thinking rather from the truth. coz the truth is the opposite of what i always think. i tend to think so negative and i just hurt myself from it. whenever you say i love you to me, i feel truly blessed to have you. it's like you're the air in my lungs that i live to breathe, tru. for example like yesterday, i felt that i didn't have you anymore and that thought seriously, literally made it hard for me to breathe. but now that i know i do got you still and you didn't forget me just made me smile - it's like talking to you is my painkiller. you're the reason i truly smile, you're the reason i feel blessed. even if you're not here, i feel the fucken greatest to have you, to call you mine. i feel that i know you and i feel that we can go a long way. i know it's kinda too early to say something like that but whatever. we can make it work and we can proove to the world that this long distance connection/chemistry between us is worth living. you the fucken best & i fucken love you. as long as you love me, i'm good. NuffSaid