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AUTOBIOGRAPHY
independant queen workin for her throne
" I know the world's cold and deceiving but I keep my head up like my nose is bleeding " - Lil Wayne
Cassandra N.R.T.'s the given name but people call me Cassie or Cas.
I got a smile on the face with a fuck you mentality. I'm hated and loved, but who isn't?
That typa girl who's called a bitch/asshole (whatever's negitive) because she speaks the truth.
In the teen years and is educated. I try my best not to regret because I only learn from my mistakes.
God and the ones I call family keep me going on the regular. My trust is limited. I know, sounds
cliche but it really is. Meaning I can count the selected ones I really trust with my own 2 hands.
Other than all the negative, i'm pretty chill once you get to know me.
Just like Kanye, Everything i'm not made me everything I am.
Get at me with something real. †♥$ ♪
Simply
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Abovethe
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CNRT©
with a mind like this there aint no stoppin me
Monday, April 6, 2009 (8:37 PM)
and i dont give two fucks if this entry is long :) take it in.
got a mind full but an empty heart. it's like bittersweet. still, i'm good, i promise. there was, still is, a distance. the distance may be long but the feeling stays strong. i stayed committed, my feelings for you just grew and i couldn't help it. just like you. you're feelings for me grew each and everytime and it happened. we happened. that was a good one month, i'm not gonna lie. no, it didn't even feel like a month. it felt like a year, no jokes. we talked since god knows when, and have had endless converstations ever since. you and i both know it. ' we making a world record of inbox msgs ' yahaha, yous a corny one. everything that went on between us, i will remember, especially you. i will never forget you. i won't be like them other girls who will hype on how my boyfriend just broke up with me coz know what? we still have that bond that we started off with, which was when we weren't even together. we're better off friends i guess. when we're just friends, we just have those random talks, nothing akward to come to because there aint no worrying. its like who the fuck cares what we say. no offending thoughts to come to mind because "you're my boyfriend, you should treat me right" we're just friends and i'm fine with that. don't get me wrong, we say that 4 letter word called love and yet it has 4 million times of a meaning. in what way do we define love? you decide coz your the one whos feeling it. sometimes the word love comes out of peoples mouths more than ever, as if it's something sweet yet when they say it, it has no meaning. sometimes we feel that just because we're in a relationship we know what love is. but do you really know what it is? there's a difference between love and lust, love and infatuation, love and a crush. i think people abuse this way too much. i'm not gonna lie, i have abused this word before. i once didn't know what love was until i got with someone who was true. true, faithful and someone who felt that they we're the one. but at this darn age, no man will be the one. forever is not part of my vocabulary. we young, nothing can last forever from now. bout forever and always... get at me with something real, get at me when your relationship lasts forever. i will be damn proud of you. no disrespect, but i have been with mans but only a few, i was in love with. people saw how i got over some quick and how it took me time to get over the few. that's because the feeling with those few was stronger then the others. im not gonna lie, i went off everytime someone broke up with me but know what? i'm happy that i even gave it a try. i look back at some of my relationships thinking if it was really worth it. i know when i wasted my time and when i didn't. mistakes we're definatley made with some but i won't hold that against em. yes i admit that i too have made mistakes and i take fault for some of my actions. everyone make's mistakes, no one is perfect. mans can act like the tougher ones but when you look at it, who really is the tougher one? the one who leaves for no reason or the one who fights for their battles. the ones who act like a bitch and act like the whole break up is put against you is obviously the weaker one. they can't stand that they let one down but know what would make the other feel better? if you were there for them as a friend. that's how i mofuckin feel bout him now. gone out with him twice now. no mistakes, no regrets. the first time round was just whack. we grew from that, put it behind and we became stronger. break up came a second time round, and he's still there for me. i'm fucking glad. i rather have him there as a friend then not having him at all. he still is gonna be there for me and i will still be there for him. who in the hell said ex-lovers can't be friends? they sure can. just coz there was a time when you was more then friends and that meant a lot, doesn't mean you gotta hold that against them and look at them differently unless they did something wrong. and who says a long distance relationship isn't possible? again, it sure damn is possible. we showed that it was possible. all you need - committment and trust, just like what you need in any other relationship. there's always gonna be the good and bad times, happy and the sad. but know what? just live it up and you both make the relationship work, not one. there's the both of you that make it. and if it doesn't work then you just weren't meant to be one. you're better off as friends. forgive and forget. reminiscing doesn't help. it'll kill you more inside, you'll hurt more than you already are. just move on, it's the best thing to do. we only live once. a relationship isn't our world and mind and because a relationship comes to an end, no the world did not come to an end. you're mind's playing tricks. you we're in what you call, love.
Yours Truly,
With a lot of Love, CEESWAGNIFICENT*
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