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AUTOBIOGRAPHY
independant queen workin for her throne
" I know the world's cold and deceiving but I keep my head up like my nose is bleeding " - Lil Wayne
Cassandra N.R.T.'s the given name but people call me Cassie or Cas.
I got a smile on the face with a fuck you mentality. I'm hated and loved, but who isn't?
That typa girl who's called a bitch/asshole (whatever's negitive) because she speaks the truth.
In the teen years and is educated. I try my best not to regret because I only learn from my mistakes.
God and the ones I call family keep me going on the regular. My trust is limited. I know, sounds
cliche but it really is. Meaning I can count the selected ones I really trust with my own 2 hands.
Other than all the negative, i'm pretty chill once you get to know me.
Just like Kanye, Everything i'm not made me everything I am.
Get at me with something real. †♥$ ♪
Simply
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lover and friend. either way it is, i don't want to loose you.
Thursday, March 26, 2009 (5:37 PM)
i can go on and on about everything and still, i don't know forsure bout 'whats good'. why did i get myself into this? it's because i know what i'm feelin and he got me. i never had someone talk to me every single day, endless conversations and corny ass jokes. no one has ever made me smile so big that my jaws would start to hurt and no one made me laugh so much over corny little shit that sometimes don't even make sense. it breaks me to see that what we have is starting to fade. that thing we have between us, the chemistry, the connection, the bond whatever fuck you want to call it. well it seems that it's starting to fade just coz we're not talking as much as we use to, we both been busy i guess? tho sometimes it seems that you don't even make an effort to talk to me as mcuh. sometimes it seems that you don't 'love' me anymore. that day when i seen " i don't know anymore =\ " on your status on facebook, i couldn't stop thinking about it ever since. and how before that we we're so good, you looking forward to our 1 month and now it just seems that you're waiting for our one month and you'll just hurt me after that. i want to say that i'm going to be fine through whatever but i'm sure i won't. get over you, move on, it'll be hard. i swear, i haven't felt this way in a long long time. if you think about it, the distance may be pretty long but the feeling is so strong, as if there is no distance. we got that thing like jay and beyonce, that bonnie and clyde vibe, word. i swear at night before i sleep i don't mean to cry but the tears just come out, thinking about you. i don't want you to ever forget me, i don't want you to ever leave me as a friend. you never read these things but i swear i need to let all this shit out somehow. like i said before, i can go on the whole day just talking about you as if i'm whipped but forreal i'm not fucking whipped if you think about it. i'm not obsessed. it's not my fault my feelings for you have grown so strong. i may be with other guys during the day but the only one that i seriously care for is you. you freakin completed my days and now it's like we loosin it. i see how your ex girls keep comin back to your facebook and writin so much shit as if they was gettin at you. yes of course i get jelous coz they're there and i'm not. and if you was to get at them back while you're with me, DRY. all i gotta say. realtalks i do freakin trust you and my emotions have been takin over me coz i don't know what the fuck is good. i love you regardless as my lover and especially as my friend. realtalks, no bullshitting. and when you get your ass here like you say you're going to, i know something will happen, again. now, i'm not getting my hopes up i just friggin know it. right now, i seriously just want to be okay ...
