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life goes on

Wednesday, September 30, 2009 (10:19 PM)

whatever?
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Aint gonna walk with my head down. Gotta keep my head up high no matter what, alie? Can't believe myself for letting things always get to me so much. Like i've always said, I can't help myself. I really can't. I always think about everything and anything. The if's and the but's, the shoulda, coulda, woulda's. It's not like any of this helps for a better change as much as I want. But life goes on. Let's just hope what was best would never leave. The memories will always and forever stay with me as much as I liked or didn't like it. My past is the past and it is for a reason, alie? Things can happen but only time will tell. Wishing doesn't do anything, same with dreaming. If only every wish came true and every dream turned to reality..

watch yaaa

Sunday, September 27, 2009 (11:21 AM)

You can say this and that and all these assumptions of yours because you think it is what it is. When clearly it's not even ~~true facts~~. So think before you even speak. Don't go around saying i'm the one doing all this ridiculous shit. Just look at yourself. Fucking hypocrite. Watch yourself.

whats poppin'

Thursday, September 24, 2009 (4:10 PM)

Haven't updated this since September 20. Just because, I have no reasn to. I mean, I kinda feel the same way still? I ~~think~~ i'm still trippin and buggin out. Holy shiet. I'm slowly getting through this. Real slowly. I haven't had a good laugh since, nothing seems to brighten my days a whole lot. Erks let's not get cheesy now. uoyssimi? (can you even read that? :P)
I'm ridiculous. Holyshit! BARE WITH ME. I'm not perfect.

Side note: School's ridiculous LOL i've had a quiz like once everyday this whole week.. Ya sure they might've been 'softer tings' but HEY, I did not prepare for shit. :)

state of me

Sunday, September 20, 2009 (12:46 PM)

I'm trying not to look like a sucka for all this. I just needa accept this, alie? I'm trippin with my head tossin and turnin and it's not a good look. But it just feels like you're forever gone and I think that's all i'm just buggin bout. Like it aint nothin that's buggin me when clearly, just look at the state of me and my mind. So maybe i'm exaggerating but best believe, i'm tryna cope. I'll get through this.. I just don't bounce quick'

" no biggie "

Thursday, September 17, 2009 (4:48 PM)

Things getting thrown at me and i'm so not good with it. The more this shit's coming through, as the days go by, the more harder it is for me to 'keep my head up'. Just cos it feels like it shound't even be this way. It feels so wrong. And way akward, I don't like it :S Like it aint even the same no more. So much words, so much to say, just don't know how to spit without being so negative on it all. Don't get me wrong, I was good before it all came crashing. ~~But whatever~~, I guss? I mean, it's not like it's the first time.. it's just been a long while I guess. Ya, I know I think I really do need to simmer down, but realtalks, I can't help myself and my emotions and feelings and watnot. Like that's just how it's going to be now? I honestly don't even blame anyone but myself. Forgive me.

i'm sore

Wednesday, September 16, 2009 (5:43 PM)

I am so fucking sore from yesterday, realtalks. It even hurts when I sneeze. Ball in the morning, gym first period... I think it's cos I didn't stretch. Ya, smart LOL. And then ball today after school just killed my thighs I feel like a big bruise.. well my thighs do. Broke 2 nails today LMFAO fuck. Now I hafta cut it ALL so it's even and shit. I'm not use to it.. I needa lay down and nap or something later.

Sayin my feelings do show in my appearance. It's so true, I can't hide shit. Going into history and 15-20 mins into the class, I get a "what's wrong" from my friggin teacher! K I was just there, not talking and shit.. Wow. Sleepless night as well. What the fuck is wrong with me. Like maybe I should simmer, maybe I shouldn't be buggin... But it's just does not feel right for me? :S Like ugh I don't even kno. Did I do something.. :\ What in the world is wrong with me, that's all I can think of. It's like a big jump.

I'm kinda fucking upset and I don't like it. :\

Gross, I sound like an emo faggot.

simmer

Tuesday, September 15, 2009 (9:09 PM)

Maybe I should simmer down and breathe. But I feel so, holyshit .. like I can't even explain myself properly right now. I don't even know. So much stuff going through my mind.. SO is something wrong with me for acting this way? Like I know I shouldn't be buggin with minor things but honestly I just omg.. K i'm aware i'm not making any sense right now (LOL).

Just like usher and every other person out there, I got my confessions
I seem to always be stressin, having no answer to all my questions

okay..

(4:08 PM)

I'm helllla tired enough fucking said! Ball tryout stuff in the morning and gym first period - fitness test shit was a fucking killller. I was honestly going to barf once I started doing my sit ups? Or push ups? Forgot. But ya, so hectic. I feel like dropping and just lying down. Relax and shit.. maybe I will a little later.

On another note,
Ugh whatthefuck is wrong with me. -.-"
:( Fuck.
What have I done
I'm buggin so much, I think i'm crazy whack.
So I think I might be just a little ridiculous.

Fucking have a headache . Holyshit.

Just like Usher and every other person out there, I got my confessions
I seem to always be stressin, having no answer to all my questions...

can't explain myself

Sunday, September 13, 2009 (12:08 PM)

Kso it's Sunday, whatta short ass weekend alie? But it does feel good sleeping in again and whatnot. Couldn't sleep last night but eventually slept anyways. I have some homework to do 8- yuck. Haha but it's soft I guess some review shit. K LET'S STOP TALKING ABOUT SCHOOL.

Anywhos, I can never seem to hide how I feel. Like I said, it's like impossible for me. Yikes. So many things to say, just don't want to on here that is. So i'll just keep it on the low. Which probably won't even happen cos I can't hide shit ^ LOL. I guess it's better to let things out anyways, so you don't feel all weird and shit inside because it'll just get to you more. It's better to know whats really good then not know anything at all.

Things runnin through my mind on the daily, y'feel me? It's kinda hard to hide, but i can't let it slide. Sittin here writin rhymes, just killin somne time, with one thing on my mind.. Now i'm startin to sound cheesy, but spittin what's on my mind with no detail aint easy. (finish this later)
Lookin back at my livejournal with all them rhymes, needa get back on that.

K i'll just stop it here. And blog later, maybe if I aint lazy.
I should change up my layout soon even if I don't want to cos of some ... oh you kno! LOL. But ya it's gettin hella old. So expect something new, maybe' again, if I aint lazy haha.

5 finger discount ;) ouu haha

Friday, September 11, 2009 (8:34 PM)

Whats reallllly good? I def don't know. Something postitive, hopefully? Same kinda tings been runnin through my mind on the regs, you could possibly say. Something, just something I don't want to expose on blogspot. Erks! So get at me if you must if you really wana know, a-ha-ha-ha. That's only if I let you know. Fucken foss :) haha.

First week of school done. Pretty soft except for the stupid english quiz which shoulda been really easy but really wasn't to a majority! And this bitchass teacher says sumin bout first impression marks shit. K honestly who the fuck gives a quiz on the second day of class!? Reached fairview after school.. fucken apple store LOL funny! I look ripppped in them pics, wth! And some slick 'discount' mhm ;) So I shall post pictures.. or not. LOL hollllllllllla

Well if you read my post before this I came across some wish quotes with some mod meaning haha. Here's another:

" There is hope in dreams, imagination, and in the courage of those who wish to make those dreams a reality "

so sick wid it

Thursday, September 10, 2009 (4:10 PM)

~~Nothin's been bugging me too much,~~ so i'm pretty chill right now. Eh I wish summer wasn't over.. or I want summer 2k10 to come faster, amazing. Got my reasons? Da fuck, im like talkin' to myself haha. So let's talk about school now which is so hectic just because it's so friggin packed with niners ! And the AC's broken? Ya it's hot as fuck! Like get that shit fixed soon before fucken winter, please. Anywhos some people these days are gettin on my nerves.. and with this statement don't assume shit that it's you unless you really do know it is you, like fuck.
{Ye and just tell me the truth, straight up; realtalks.}

My song's fucking bomb, nuff said' (LOL)

So I found so many damn wish quotes which made sense and this is just one:

My wish isn't to mean everything to everyone but to mean something to someone

'first/second day' i see a buncha posts like this :)

Wednesday, September 9, 2009 (4:18 PM)

First day - Soft, yes. Homeroom teacher's bom! They gave me some small shit ass locker in the third floor with some messed up shelf, obviously I didn't want it so I just stole a next one on the second floor :) So the school now is MAD packed. So many niners holay shit haha! And the school is super hot like the heater was on or somethin? Ew.
Went DT/Eatons yesterday seen a buncha people I didn't expect, erks !

Second day - Pretty soft again. Gym in the morning is a bitch.. preventing to sweat so much.. LOL but we barely did anything just played some ball more like just take shots and volleyball. VP made an announcement on how there's going to be notes on lockers if you took someone elses and not yours... but mine didn't have one so suck it up haha. And 3B lunch is friggin whack, like there's barely anyone there erks and yeah I got hungry by second already. Idk how ima do this haha. Other than that, soft day again and SUPER hot again - they needa fix that asap!

Now I'm comtemplating what I am gonna say

Monday, September 7, 2009 (7:22 PM)

It's so fuucking cold in my house right now.. Yaaaack, school's tmrw. K let's not go there. Haha. Anyways.. a;sfeutdgkjslkfjseh I don't fkn know what to write. I'm kinda bored and I wanted to get that long post off LOL. Kryptonite stuck in my head like!? Maybe cos I been listening to it all day? What can I say, it's a nice song - never gets old. Couple of things runnin through my head but that's okay. That's for me to know and you to find out? If you can get it out of me that is haha.

if i could make time stand still

Sunday, September 6, 2009 (2:12 PM)

G'bye summer 2k9, as gay as that sounds. Ended in the way I didn't expect it to. But whatever. Barely went out in August but whatever I seem to go out more when school is here ... lol weird. Heading out to downtown anytime soon.. holla let me shop it all off haha (ew that was corny lmao). In another note, I don't know how to express myself at this point.. only cos something's just kinda like a mix up and I just don't know whats really good, once again. I guess i'm waiting for summer 2k10 which is hella far.
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instead of making another post on the same day i'll just update here.. (8:28 PM)
So I just got back from walking down Queen Street and whatnot. Got a jacket and some sweater thing and then I picked up myself a pair of black chukka vans for school from Get Outside. I remembered my friend works at Footlocker on Queen so I decided to go there to see him but this guy was MIA probably at the back getting shoes but I didn't see him. So I texted him saying where the hell he is and he says how hes at work -.-" and he told me to go back but I was kinda far. Wore my pretty nike dunks and nuff people kept sayin "nice shoes" or like "where'd you get your shoes" Ya eh. Well me is not telling you LOL. And some chink mans starring at me for the longest time like... i'm not blind! Reminds me of yesterday when I was at the CNE this stupid guy went close to me then chopped me and he was with his girlfriend - like whatthefuck, don't be dumb.

So i'm aware this post is pretty LONG so ima end it right here.

I wish.\ that's all I ever seem to be doing (corny shit). If only there was a way to make dreams come to reality then maybe, just maybe i'll simmer down'

how fun ...

Saturday, September 5, 2009 (11:34 AM)

Whatta great way to end my summer... major flops on PND - the fuck. Some hella mix up. So cheeesed I don't even know where i'm going with this post. Kinda cranky you can say? Waking up to all these damn noises in my house when i'd still be sleeping... My dukes are straight up fobs I swear to gaaad. Asking me if I wanna reach land on Sunday.. are you dumb. I fully asked to reach today for reasons.. like I rather go back to school shopping or some shit holy. Cheeese me, nuff said. And knowing this is the end of summer.. this is what I get? FUN. Yeeeeah right. And then this whole other mix up :S I wasn't expecting shit ..

"when god made you he was showing off (L)"

Friday, September 4, 2009 (10:23 PM)

LMFAO to the title. Someone tell me what kind of ridiculous line that is. Some whack shit. Anyways on another note.. hm I can't even entirely explain this in a way that's not so negative on myself. But ye, sometimes it does seem like the same kinda shit when it's not. Or maybe it is and people are just do the same shit in a different way. Hard to explain, really. Hopefully nothing whack. But who knows whats really good? Why'd that kind of get to me or why is it kind of getting to me\ it shouldn't .. Why am I buggin' !? Like I said in the previous post I can't hide shit! lol whatever. I'll still always be here ...

As for tmrw - I don't fucking know what's going on ! Bullllshit LOL :(
Last weekend of summer 2k9. School's in 4 days? And I don't have shit, how smart of myself'

ironic

Thursday, September 3, 2009 (12:10 PM)

The things we worry about don't happen, sometimes. But when we don't worry 'bout it, that's when it happens.

Same kinda shit, just a different day. I hate this shit, period.
I can never seem to hide how I really feel. It's like impossible for me.
Aint gonna front, I do tend to let things get to me too much, I get caught up.
I should take in my own advice that always seem to help others.
I feel so dumb.